It's happening . . .

 . . . the inevitable is happening . . . the day I never thought would come . . . the one I could never picture in my mind . . . well it's been happening all a long but I tried to ignore the fact that my children are growing and maturing and becoming more independent . . . aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!

   I've always told Dave I can see myself the mother of a baby, but never a mother of a child who is a toddler much less a child that barely needs your hand when you cross the street together.  Now look at me the mom of a toddler and a 6, almost 7, year old who lost her 1st tooth today, writes I love Justin Bieber on her bookmarks, and kinda has a boyfriend at school . . . Mason (she's known him since she was 2, in fact he was at her 2nd birthday party).  So at least she's known him for a while before she kinda makes him her boyfriend.

  I'm scared in all honesty . . . am I guiding them in the right directions, leading them like I should, correcting them correctly.  I feel so absent from my family because of my full time job, but this is my life, this is our life, so I must make the best of it.  I wonder sometimes, though, 'Am I making the best of it?' 

  Rebecca even wants to go to a slumber birthday party this weekend and is talking on the phone to her classmate more than I remember talking on the phone in 1st grade.  Of course, she is reading a lot more and a lot better than I ever read in 1st grade.  Truthfully she is very intelligent and I pray that she will have more common sense that I had as a child.

  Christian is communicating wonderfully, interacting well with others, loves his one on one time, and doing some unwanted 2 yr old things!  But this is normal, I know!

  So this is my life and I'm LOVING IT!   

P.S.  Look out for the Tooth Fairy tonight!

Get rid of it!

Don't you just wish you could get rid of it!  You know that stinky, weigh-you-down, smelly, pile-up-on-you, rotten garbage!  Lately, I've been feeling bogged down by junk, not physical junk, but thoughtlessness, other's bad moods, negativity, budgetting, needless worries junk!  You  know what I mean?

So I ask myself, 'Self, how am I going to get rid of this garbage?'  And I realized there is one and only one solution . . . Give it to God, Let Go and Let God, Stop try to do it in my power!  Yes, I know that was 3, but it was 3-n-1(hahaha).

So I must focus on goodness, kindness, love, and peace.  Rebecca and I made a list to put on the fridge tonight after we had a lengthy discussion at dinner.  The discussion was about trying to act like God wants us to act.  I reminded her something she knows by heart . . . "If mom or dad tells you 'no', it's not to be mean, but to" . . . and I say, 'to what Rebecca?' and she says, 'it's to keep me safe'!  I also told her a story . . . before she was born I prayed if God gave us another child that I would do my best to help him/her live like God wants him/her to live and that I would do my best as a parent to raise my child with Him.

I've been noticing a lot of whining, yelling, and things God wouldn't be proud of in our home lately and so here is the list Rebecca and I made:

     Respecting One Another

Listen
Obey
Speak nicely
Put others 1st
Treat others as you want to be treated*

The last (we agreed) was the most important and Rebecca said she thinks obey is the next important.

I HATE, yes, HATE taking things, opportunities, people, experiences for granted.  I pray that God guides me to take every opportunity I can to be a better role model and parent for my children, better wife for my husband and to treat others as I want to be treated.

Already March, wow, where does the time go?  It goes here and there, but I definitely don't want to waste it on garbage!